Monday, September 27, 2010

I'm coming.

I should be packing, cleaning, preparing, scheduling. Here I am blogging about it instead. It started out innocently--a trip to be with Miriam and their new firstborn. Suddenly it is a family reunion. How does it just happen? I thought family reunions took effort and here we are watching the phenomenon gracefully roll along as if it has its own power source, like my heart does.

I am still coming for the newborn. I will be an excellent sport about all the exciting reunion schedule, but I will have one part of my heart on the trail and the other in the bassinet. So if I seem a little quiet, (right!) you will know why.

I love all my daughters and the births of their babies. It is a special bond that forms as we talk and laugh over the shared experiences. What is it about this new horizon in my life, when my son's wife is carrying my new grandchild, that fills me with wonder? I have been a little embarrassed about my crazy love of having babies, but Katie is all over it!! Children sense that they were wanted and cherished. I think they get it while still in the womb. The special dance between the grandmothers I will again do in March. I am in a different place with this one. But I have always felt arms tightly around me, welcoming me into the circle. You do not know how beautiful it has been.

Some things I look forward to: Holding my little girls, reading to them, telling them stories, watching the kids dance, talking with each individual, listening to a session of conference (although the chance of listening is somewhat compromised), singing, seeing Hannah relax, going to DI, a fabric shop, Deseret Book, feeling like I can be myself.

Some things I am nervous about: My back, sleeping poorly, being held responsible for Dad's distracted nature, listening to his complaining about not being able to surf (laugh all you want, I am serious!), being photographed, getting back into Arcata Airport on time.

So I will step into our car...hope it makes it far enough for you all to come rescue us...and off we will come. Leaving home to come home.

3 comments:

miriam said...

Guess it makes you realize that the best of times are the most spontaneous. We don't need elaborate plans. Just get us together and there's enough to do!

Unknown said...

All these grandkids in this family are so lucky to have so much love from so many family members! I am really blessed to be a part of this awesome family. I have been like a kid before Christmas anticipating all of us being together. Love you guys!

Unknown said...

PS- Mary, I've been feeling pretty discouraged with being so sick lately, but your post just made me feel so much better! Reminded me why I am in this current state and how unbelievably worth it this all is. Thanks!